bad memory

i really dunno how to express my feeling.. but i had it enough.. i reach my limit.. have u ever treat me as a friend? think before u say!! there were a lot of thing that u did to me but u just dont even give a damm to understand about my feeling..i'm just like a machine for u to "touch n go" ..i'm a just a friend to u when u need me..orelse i'm just like a stranger..remember u ditch me n xin jia for following wai ling they all?? remember?? u know i FEEL so damm pain inside my heart!!! atlast was cathy the one who accompany me instead of u !! come on we've been friend for more than 6 years..actually i dun mind u ask me to help for meeting ur bf but there was one time i remember we actually promise to watch a movie together but at the same day suddenly ur bf was free then u just walk off to meet ur bf..i dun mind nvm i know coz u dun have many time to spend with him..its ok!!! i just feel so sick of everything !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! to me from foundation till now its xin jia who accompany me no matter how whether i'm alone or not feeling well or family problem and many la when i'm worried for my exam she even tell me nvm we stay back together and study together no matter what she didnt give up on me..she even gave me things that she wanted badly..jia i really love u !!!..i just know her for 1 year and 7 month but she treat me like her own family member i dont mean to compare but when i started to think about it i FEEL MORE SICK.. MORE DISAPPOINTED..jennifer and vone deng i oso know them for 1 year and 7 month but they didnt give up on me although i always didnt pick up their calls..they still call me..ask me whether i got come to college or not ah..whether i got print notes or not ler..whether i'm unhappy or not ah..jen even sacrifice her time teach me maths which is my weakest subject by staying after college to teach me..teach me in other subject..cheer me up with SOMETHING *secret*.. take care me..comfort me when i'm worried for my exam which is the most important thing which i needed it badlyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy .. all these while i always have faith wish that one day u could sacrifice ur day for me instead of meeting up ur bf..but nvm end up disappointed only ya!!