courage

a peaceful life for me will do..courage is what i really need for now..i hate to think so much this is a bad attitude i have..hint that u gave me i understand and i know what to do..being alone in an environment wont be that worst i guess >< LOL..learn to grow up is something that is difficult..but i might give it a try ^^ ..

life

just now when i read a girl's blog, i was so relieve because i thought i a lil mental problem lol.. but after reading her blog i feel so happy because there is someone out there having the same feeling like i do..and facing similar problem like i do too..and the fact is i dont know her ^^..

last few days, my feeling were totally suck+worst which i dont even have the energy to do anything i even put all my unhappy stress feeling on my babe this is wat i feel the worst.. and i'm really out of control.. even my babe feel dunno wat to do to me which he had done a lot of stuff just to make me happy..but i just give him a cold face..i'm sorry babe..because i've been waiting for u to say "love you, hug and hold my hands" all these things really melt my heart..i know i've been acting like a lil kiddo and is time to be a mature adult..learn to give and take if this relationship is really wat we want to work it on till we're old..a relationship require fully participation of both of us..i hope that ure the one that will always lead me when i'm lost..last time u used to cuddle me, always be there for me, willing to wait me for few hours TT.. but now u dont cuddle me this is one of the reason y i'm being so sensitive..because u're always there to cuddle me give me wat i want treat me like a lil princess this is y i feel so miserable..but i understand babe because yesterday u told me ure always the same u would still always be there and willing to wait for me for few hours babe thank you..i understand sometimes when i'm too over that make u really reach ur limit..sorry babe now is the time for me to learn to grow up..babe and thank you for being so patience to me..babe whenever i'm out of control u could always stop me by saying "ILU" XD..

sigh

family is a thing that i feel so miserable..maybe i'm slowly used to it de ba..i feel i need to be alone..when i'm outside i wish to be back home ASAP..maybe its my fault coz i didnt shop with them for a long time de..but everything already turn out this way so..let it be..coz i dunno whether i want change to another way or not..wat i can say i already slowly used to the way they wanna treat me de.. ^^ peace

TT

life

babe..sigh today dunno wat happen i feel so exhausted lol *everyday i oso feel that way* i think maybe the weather too hot sigh..i feel so miserable these few days..lucky babe ure always there with a sweet smile for me..i really admire u ler, ur smile really can make ppl faint ler lol.. especially me ><


I SO MISS U NOW LER..U KNOW THAT?? WHERE R U ?? *at T T*

DID U MISS ME?? *i do*

LOL..i think i'm crazy..babe i'm lost TT lol i think i'm not sure..

MISERABLE LIFEEEE