bad memory

i really dunno how to express my feeling.. but i had it enough.. i reach my limit.. have u ever treat me as a friend? think before u say!! there were a lot of thing that u did to me but u just dont even give a damm to understand about my feeling..i'm just like a machine for u to "touch n go" ..i'm a just a friend to u when u need me..orelse i'm just like a stranger..remember u ditch me n xin jia for following wai ling they all?? remember?? u know i FEEL so damm pain inside my heart!!! atlast was cathy the one who accompany me instead of u !! come on we've been friend for more than 6 years..actually i dun mind u ask me to help for meeting ur bf but there was one time i remember we actually promise to watch a movie together but at the same day suddenly ur bf was free then u just walk off to meet ur bf..i dun mind nvm i know coz u dun have many time to spend with him..its ok!!! i just feel so sick of everything !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! to me from foundation till now its xin jia who accompany me no matter how whether i'm alone or not feeling well or family problem and many la when i'm worried for my exam she even tell me nvm we stay back together and study together no matter what she didnt give up on me..she even gave me things that she wanted badly..jia i really love u !!!..i just know her for 1 year and 7 month but she treat me like her own family member i dont mean to compare but when i started to think about it i FEEL MORE SICK.. MORE DISAPPOINTED..jennifer and vone deng i oso know them for 1 year and 7 month but they didnt give up on me although i always didnt pick up their calls..they still call me..ask me whether i got come to college or not ah..whether i got print notes or not ler..whether i'm unhappy or not ah..jen even sacrifice her time teach me maths which is my weakest subject by staying after college to teach me..teach me in other subject..cheer me up with SOMETHING *secret*.. take care me..comfort me when i'm worried for my exam which is the most important thing which i needed it badlyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy .. all these while i always have faith wish that one day u could sacrifice ur day for me instead of meeting up ur bf..but nvm end up disappointed only ya!!

specially to babe

babe i'm so sorry these few days i keep on behave like a kid i'm so sorry

i really appreciate wat u've done for me all these time..

babe ur friend stuff makes me feel that our relationship is just like a gold

a gold that we must treasure it till the very very very very end

till we're both old..

i believe that no matter how long a relationship is if both them doesnt treasure it then no point ler of being together ler..

i love u babe..

i really hope when ure an old grandpa i will be the one next to u holding ur hand..

REDANG

this is my first time with my friends going for a trip !! REDANG!!

maybe u may think i'm kampung girl *da heong lei* TT but i'm not !!

i'm really enjoy ler coz every morning my 2 fei por come wake you wei and me up ler because they know if they didnt wake we both up we will oversleep punya ler!!

i really dont feel like going home because home gave me a sick feeling but at redang got friends and bf there i really feel warm and at redang we're like staying together at a house with different rooms..

i really hope that there will be next station that all of us can go out together AGAIN ler..

thank you fat babe !! thank you very much for always be there for me..i know mostly oso u take care me ler help me clean up the room *although i oso got la but once only* for giving me a warm hug when i'm cold and oso also blanket !! thank you thank you babe !!!! wo ai ni!!!! accompany me to dance and buy stuff and swimming even though ure tired after finish snorkling!!

thank you vone deng seeing u makes me feel happy coz u always kena bully heheheh hou yam gong ler!! especially when u kena sand on ur pipi ler >< then u ran into jen and me to protect u ^^ fei por ting!! ting no matter wat happen to u..jen and me will always forever be with u !! big mama here muahahahah~~

thank you fei por jen!! for planning all the trip!! without u this trip wont work !! and thank you for taking care of me for the whole trip TT i know i'm a big kid!! THANK YOU!! i feel very warm when i hear ur voice screaming and shouting here and there ler >< it makes me feel that ur around me!!! really thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thank you debbie for ur sleeping suit without it i think i cant be sleeping comfortably!!!! and >< sorry bie if i throw sand on ur head sorry dont angry k bie !! ah bie i hope there is next time that we can still go out for trip ler.. i really feel very happy that we went together for this trip ler!!

thank you vincent for joining sorry because u got exam yet u still join us ler.. thank you!!!! gambateh in ur exam ya!!

thank you cathy for the colgate hehehe without that my mouth will be smelly and i will be going to jen's room and steal hers hahahahah.. cathy i feel happy to see u there it makes me feel happy..

thank you edmund for accompany you wei and me to laguna's swimming pool..U WALK AWAY BECAUSE U FEEL THAT I FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE BECAUSE OF U but i wanna tell u its not because of u k its because of that bunch of guyz at the jaguzzi ler not u !!!

thank you boo chooi and wandy without u guys for joining redang trip everything meant nothing ler.. boo boo although is the first time going to trip with u but i feel happy and funny with you words!! hahahaha