courage

a peaceful life for me will do..courage is what i really need for now..i hate to think so much this is a bad attitude i have..hint that u gave me i understand and i know what to do..being alone in an environment wont be that worst i guess >< LOL..learn to grow up is something that is difficult..but i might give it a try ^^ ..

life

just now when i read a girl's blog, i was so relieve because i thought i a lil mental problem lol.. but after reading her blog i feel so happy because there is someone out there having the same feeling like i do..and facing similar problem like i do too..and the fact is i dont know her ^^..

last few days, my feeling were totally suck+worst which i dont even have the energy to do anything i even put all my unhappy stress feeling on my babe this is wat i feel the worst.. and i'm really out of control.. even my babe feel dunno wat to do to me which he had done a lot of stuff just to make me happy..but i just give him a cold face..i'm sorry babe..because i've been waiting for u to say "love you, hug and hold my hands" all these things really melt my heart..i know i've been acting like a lil kiddo and is time to be a mature adult..learn to give and take if this relationship is really wat we want to work it on till we're old..a relationship require fully participation of both of us..i hope that ure the one that will always lead me when i'm lost..last time u used to cuddle me, always be there for me, willing to wait me for few hours TT.. but now u dont cuddle me this is one of the reason y i'm being so sensitive..because u're always there to cuddle me give me wat i want treat me like a lil princess this is y i feel so miserable..but i understand babe because yesterday u told me ure always the same u would still always be there and willing to wait for me for few hours babe thank you..i understand sometimes when i'm too over that make u really reach ur limit..sorry babe now is the time for me to learn to grow up..babe and thank you for being so patience to me..babe whenever i'm out of control u could always stop me by saying "ILU" XD..

sigh

family is a thing that i feel so miserable..maybe i'm slowly used to it de ba..i feel i need to be alone..when i'm outside i wish to be back home ASAP..maybe its my fault coz i didnt shop with them for a long time de..but everything already turn out this way so..let it be..coz i dunno whether i want change to another way or not..wat i can say i already slowly used to the way they wanna treat me de.. ^^ peace

TT

life

babe..sigh today dunno wat happen i feel so exhausted lol *everyday i oso feel that way* i think maybe the weather too hot sigh..i feel so miserable these few days..lucky babe ure always there with a sweet smile for me..i really admire u ler, ur smile really can make ppl faint ler lol.. especially me ><


I SO MISS U NOW LER..U KNOW THAT?? WHERE R U ?? *at T T*

DID U MISS ME?? *i do*

LOL..i think i'm crazy..babe i'm lost TT lol i think i'm not sure..

MISERABLE LIFEEEE

tdy

a hungry man is an angry man..now only i realize y nowadays i get so angry easily..when i bath just now i only realize..its because i didnt organize my time to eat properly when until its late night i starting to feel hungry and yet i cant eat that's the time i feel depress and disappointed..

sigh

has a discussion with my daddy just now about my studies at oversea..daddy let me go ler for 2 years at aus..but i feel so unhappy..there are alot of thing that i'm afraid TT.. i want to spend time with my tan put put, afraid that my friend in kl will forget about me..afraid my family especially my daddy will have a burden because my sis and i going off in the same year..however, this is not the final decision..so i no need to think about it first..now i just wish to spend time with my tan put put and my fei porS and my twins.. no wonder ppl always used to say appreciate ppl that are around u !! tan put put i hope that u will remember our promise.. there is one thing i wish it badly..i wish that all my friends my fei pors can go together ler at aus..remember wat we used to say ?? when in aus fei por jen will do the cooking lol..so yam gong hahahah..and babe tan put put i just wish to enjoy and appreciate every moment with u although i always act like a kid TT sorry babe i know its hard to stand my behavior really thank you babe really ILU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but anyway now is only under discussion nvm nvm nvm nvm still got time to think..long way to go ~~