Totally down

I think I lost my sense of direction..I'm confused with what I want now..my feeling is just like a mountain going up and down nonstop..how am I gonna solve my problem? Help me pls my god

我觉得很矛盾~ Facebook ? Single? Since when u change it..I also dunno ~

today

please don't feel guilty and sympathy towards me alright..

tdy

i will do my best to graduate and my best to get out of this family..i'm so over it with not letting me to go aus and study..ENOUGH liao la..CHILDISH IDIOT FUCKING BROTHER..u make me hate u once badly and now because of small thing u make me think that u're much more worst than what i think..FUCKING CHILDISH..FUCKING GF U BRING TO HOME..

oh my god please help me and guide me through all these thing..i really need to get out from this family badly..friends and relationship i can pick myself but family is the only relationship i can't pick..but when i'm old enough to take care of myself thats the day i say BYE BYE to this house and so called family members =)

ESPECIALLY GOOD BROTHER..OR SO CALLED BROTHER

^^

no one to rely on nvm..suffer now rather than suffer in the future~

miserable

i feel so abnormal..when i study i feel that its so hard to memorize by heart compare to last time i can memorize easily unlike now..what is going on with me? it seems like there are a lot of thing bothering me..i feel so insecure but i can't do anything..no one there to talk to make me feel even worst..relationship friendship family ? didn't want any help just need someone to be there for me..but the worst thing is none/no one i can think of..except two person but i must stop relying on ppl de.. how how how how ?

tired period

i'm tired i'm stress i duwan ppl to look down on me..but what can i do? i'm losing my mind soon..

to:me

happy anniversary

hectic

many things happen these few days..so damm stress.. is there anyone out there can borrow his/her shoulder to me?

to: u

i hate being sarcastic..btw i don't even know the meaning of it.. i say its interesting at first its because i'm considering whether to ask u or not..cause i don't think it is important therefore i'm considering..its not that i'm being sarcastic for saying its interesting cause i can say got something interesting to tell u which is easier for me to change the topic to iPhone game which i just downloaded it and this interesting topic can cover up the main topic that i wanna ask u.. this is what i wanna tell u actually i don't mind..but i just wanna tell u the truth and what i have found..its not that i want any answer from u or what..i don't even understand what i'm writing now..if u understand then good la

things

i know u have change certain thing ler..its alright leh..but give me some time to get used to everything.. =)

days without u

didn't receive ur msg and call for few days de..but i'm glad at least i can know that u reach UK safely..i was very worry thinking of whether do u have enough sleep? used to the life there? and did u bought UK's sim card? a lot of question popping out in my mind..until i receive msg from ur mom saying that u reach UK safely i suddenly feel that i just have a question to ask u "are u alright?" instead of those unimportant question popping out in my mind..i miss u..but i'm starting to get used to writing blog de..last time i used to think what for to update in blog since i can see u everyday and eventually i can update u when i see u but now i don't think i have that chance to do that de..so i must get used to writing blog in order to express my feeling towards u..take care =)

life

the moment u went down to the escalator, suddenly my brain has a flash back of what we have been through although the time that we spend together are not that long compare to her however meaningful relationship doesn't use period of time to measure. based on my opinion i think it depends on both couple willing to sacrifice time and things for each other. From my flash back i can view the first time sitting in ur car as someone u love hehehe and i'm truly sorry that i almost cause u an accident XD i don't mean it o i also dunno how come i didn't speak it out i just hold ur hand tight ><..i promise no next time..babe u know mah, after not long ago, i really cause u an accident which i feel so guilty and i can see that this accident really cause u a big problem which u really need a car badly in order to work and i will be using my car to college and need it do something else..and i'm sorry that i can't help u a lotTT if its not because of me..u won't be driving like F1 racer just to fetch me to college and dont want me to be late =( ..and every time when i'm unhappy or if there is something happening between us, u would always go to 7-11 and buy my favorite drink "malta" ... although throughout the whole year sometimes we always argue over some small issue but i'm really happy because in every issue i can feel that how much u care about me..but i don't dare to express it out XD cause i paiseh so i just act angrily to cover my paiseh heeheh this is something which i don't dare to tell u all these while.. and then during december time was my favorite although u didn't get to accompany me all the time but at least i'm satisfied cause u might need to accompany beh beh and wen wen but beside that u gave all ur time to me so i'm sorry once again that i shouldn't complain anything as u were already enough perfect..and once again thank you BABE for giving a good family i sincerely love them with all my heart..and during our indonesia trip, i know a bit boring cause there is nothing to play with however i feel satisfied and happy cause i never been to a trip peacefully.. =( each and every time including my last trip to australia with family i feel so headache + exhausting every single day also got complaining by my daddy some more his voice was loud..and i love sitting on the boat with just us as a family i feel so unique..i feel happy to have a warm family...all these things is u gave me de..thank you so much babe..oh yeah..and thank you to your beloved mommy and grandma for taking care of my health and loving me like her daughter/grand daughter and also to training me as a good gf.. i promise i will visit them these few months before i start working..once again thank you so much for giving me all these,,i'm really satisfied..although i won't know what will happen in the future but i hope we both work hard in our studies and also for our future and i sincerely love u so much and i couldn't stop thinking about u =( i know this is not what u want but i'm sorry i will try my best to control..please do take care when u're in UK..hope to see u soon babe,,all the best and hope u pass ur exam with flying colors..oh yeah and also about redang trip although we go with my college friend but u never hesitate about not being close with them or worrying that u'll be alone or some other situation.. i love u so much for never hesitating to foliow me to redang trip.. =) u even have a good bonding session with my friend which this is the part that i'm truly proud of u..cause me myself are not capable to do something like that!! ONCE AGAIN THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BEING PART OF MY LIFE

Feeling

I wanna be selfish too..u have ur way in deciding Wat u want and when u wanna go out..I would like to tell u, I would oso wanna be selfish in deciding Wat I wanna do..and I know u won't be stopping me in doing anything..that's ur problem but u can't stop me from following u and wanna do things together with u as we might not predict the future so I would really appreciate the time to go somewhere else with u..So don't stop me..everyone has different way of expressing their way of doing things so am I..

fantastic =)

hehe =) have a great day today although got a bit miserable but still ok luu quite fun shopping around with my babe and bff jessica~ ehehhe

Worst feeling

I thought I have lost u..but lucky I found u at last but the process of finding u..I really feel like crying I feel so pathetic and I swear I will always keep u by my side..I will never let u go !!! Love u my ring~

Life is just a climb but the view is great ^~^

想了一个晚上，觉的想通了~ hope u will always be happy and get what u want..hehehe I will just do what I want ya !!!

Thinking

老天爷，您可以跟我说我到底应该怎么做才不会那么累 和辛苦？我好恨我自己喔应为我很笨。老天爷，您能救我吗？I beg u !!!!! God can u bring me away??

Moody reason

There are always a few things which will make me moody ler sigh I hate it!! First reason: not enough sleep, second reason: hungry, third reason: others ~ very uncomfortable ler !! Who can help me I can't sleep ler TT cause I'm feel unhappy + having uncomfortable feeling !!! Who can cure me ah??

Today quite moody

Put urself in my shoe before u say something..this is Wat I've learn today..dunno la I just think life is miserable ~ is it because I really have my own mind set or something else ..