Silence Is Golden

Totally down

2012-01-07T10:43:00.000-08:00

I think I lost my sense of direction..I'm confused with what I want now..my feeling is just like a mountain going up and down nonstop..how am I gonna solve my problem? Help me pls my god

2012-01-02T22:32:00.000-08:00

我觉得很矛盾~ Facebook ? Single? Since when u change it..I also dunno ~

today

2011-11-21T22:01:00.000-08:00

please don't feel guilty and sympathy towards me alright..

tdy

2011-11-21T07:55:00.000-08:00

i will do my best to graduate and my best to get out of this family..i'm so over it with not letting me to go aus and study..ENOUGH liao la..CHILDISH IDIOT FUCKING BROTHER..u make me hate u once badly and now because of small thing u make me think that u're much more worst than what i think..FUCKING CHILDISH..FUCKING GF U BRING TO HOME..

oh my god please help me and guide me through all these thing..i really need to get out from this family badly..friends and relationship i can pick myself but family is the only relationship i can't pick..but when i'm old enough to take care of myself thats the day i say BYE BYE to this house and so called family members =)

ESPECIALLY GOOD BROTHER..OR SO CALLED BROTHER

^^

2011-11-17T08:18:00.000-08:00

no one to rely on nvm..suffer now rather than suffer in the future~

miserable

2011-11-17T08:06:00.000-08:00

i feel so abnormal..when i study i feel that its so hard to memorize by heart compare to last time i can memorize easily unlike now..what is going on with me? it seems like there are a lot of thing bothering me..i feel so insecure but i can't do anything..no one there to talk to make me feel even worst..relationship friendship family ? didn't want any help just need someone to be there for me..but the worst thing is none/no one i can think of..except two person but i must stop relying on ppl de.. how how how how ?

tired period

2011-11-13T08:47:00.001-08:00

i'm tired i'm stress i duwan ppl to look down on me..but what can i do? i'm losing my mind soon..

to:me

2011-10-22T01:33:00.001-07:00

happy anniversary

hectic

2011-10-21T02:34:00.001-07:00

many things happen these few days..so damm stress.. is there anyone out there can borrow his/her shoulder to me?

to: u

2011-10-16T08:03:00.000-07:00

i hate being sarcastic..btw i don't even know the meaning of it.. i say its interesting at first its because i'm considering whether to ask u or not..cause i don't think it is important therefore i'm considering..its not that i'm being sarcastic for saying its interesting cause i can say got something interesting to tell u which is easier for me to change the topic to iPhone game which i just downloaded it and this interesting topic can cover up the main topic that i wanna ask u.. this is what i wanna tell u actually i don't mind..but i just wanna tell u the truth and what i have found..its not that i want any answer from u or what..i don't even understand what i'm writing now..if u understand then good la

things

2011-09-18T04:32:00.000-07:00

i know u have change certain thing ler..its alright leh..but give me some time to get used to everything.. =)

days without u

2011-09-18T01:05:00.000-07:00

didn't receive ur msg and call for few days de..but i'm glad at least i can know that u reach UK safely..i was very worry thinking of whether do u have enough sleep? used to the life there? and did u bought UK's sim card? a lot of question popping out in my mind..until i receive msg from ur mom saying that u reach UK safely i suddenly feel that i just have a question to ask u "are u alright?" instead of those unimportant question popping out in my mind..i miss u..but i'm starting to get used to writing blog de..last time i used to think what for to update in blog since i can see u everyday and eventually i can update u when i see u but now i don't think i have that chance to do that de..so i must get used to writing blog in order to express my feeling towards u..take care =)

life

2011-09-16T09:21:00.000-07:00

the moment u went down to the escalator, suddenly my brain has a flash back of what we have been through although the time that we spend together are not that long compare to her however meaningful relationship doesn't use period of time to measure. based on my opinion i think it depends on both couple willing to sacrifice time and things for each other. From my flash back i can view the first time sitting in ur car as someone u love hehehe and i'm truly sorry that i almost cause u an accident XD i don't mean it o i also dunno how come i didn't speak it out i just hold ur hand tight ><..i promise no next time..babe u know mah, after not long ago, i really cause u an accident which i feel so guilty and i can see that this accident really cause u a big problem which u really need a car badly in order to work and i will be using my car to college and need it do something else..and i'm sorry that i can't help u a lotTT if its not because of me..u won't be driving like F1 racer just to fetch me to college and dont want me to be late =( ..and every time when i'm unhappy or if there is something happening between us, u would always go to 7-11 and buy my favorite drink "malta" ... although throughout the whole year sometimes we always argue over some small issue but i'm really happy because in every issue i can feel that how much u care about me..but i don't dare to express it out XD cause i paiseh so i just act angrily to cover my paiseh heeheh this is something which i don't dare to tell u all these while.. and then during december time was my favorite although u didn't get to accompany me all the time but at least i'm satisfied cause u might need to accompany beh beh and wen wen but beside that u gave all ur time to me so i'm sorry once again that i shouldn't complain anything as u were already enough perfect..and once again thank you BABE for giving a good family i sincerely love them with all my heart..and during our indonesia trip, i know a bit boring cause there is nothing to play with however i feel satisfied and happy cause i never been to a trip peacefully.. =( each and every time including my last trip to australia with family i feel so headache + exhausting every single day also got complaining by my daddy some more his voice was loud..and i love sitting on the boat with just us as a family i feel so unique..i feel happy to have a warm family...all these things is u gave me de..thank you so much babe..oh yeah..and thank you to your beloved mommy and grandma for taking care of my health and loving me like her daughter/grand daughter and also to training me as a good gf.. i promise i will visit them these few months before i start working..once again thank you so much for giving me all these,,i'm really satisfied..although i won't know what will happen in the future but i hope we both work hard in our studies and also for our future and i sincerely love u so much and i couldn't stop thinking about u =( i know this is not what u want but i'm sorry i will try my best to control..please do take care when u're in UK..hope to see u soon babe,,all the best and hope u pass ur exam with flying colors..oh yeah and also about redang trip although we go with my college friend but u never hesitate about not being close with them or worrying that u'll be alone or some other situation.. i love u so much for never hesitating to foliow me to redang trip.. =) u even have a good bonding session with my friend which this is the part that i'm truly proud of u..cause me myself are not capable to do something like that!! ONCE AGAIN THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BEING PART OF MY LIFE

Feeling

2011-09-04T23:02:00.000-07:00

I wanna be selfish too..u have ur way in deciding Wat u want and when u wanna go out..I would like to tell u, I would oso wanna be selfish in deciding Wat I wanna do..and I know u won't be stopping me in doing anything..that's ur problem but u can't stop me from following u and wanna do things together with u as we might not predict the future so I would really appreciate the time to go somewhere else with u..So don't stop me..everyone has different way of expressing their way of doing things so am I..

fantastic =)

2011-09-04T07:29:00.000-07:00

hehe =) have a great day today although got a bit miserable but still ok luu quite fun shopping around with my babe and bff jessica~ ehehhe

Worst feeling

2011-08-24T18:25:00.000-07:00

I thought I have lost u..but lucky I found u at last but the process of finding u..I really feel like crying I feel so pathetic and I swear I will always keep u by my side..I will never let u go !!! Love u my ring~

Life is just a climb but the view is great ^~^

2011-08-20T21:01:00.000-07:00

想了一个晚上，觉的想通了~ hope u will always be happy and get what u want..hehehe I will just do what I want ya !!!

Thinking

2011-08-20T07:23:00.000-07:00

老天爷，您可以跟我说我到底应该怎么做才不会那么累和辛苦？我好恨我自己喔应为我很笨。老天爷，您能救我吗？I beg u !!!!! God can u bring me away??

Moody reason

2011-08-16T09:23:00.000-07:00

There are always a few things which will make me moody ler sigh I hate it!! First reason: not enough sleep, second reason: hungry, third reason: others ~ very uncomfortable ler !! Who can help me I can't sleep ler TT cause I'm feel unhappy + having uncomfortable feeling !!! Who can cure me ah??

Today quite moody

2011-08-02T00:16:00.000-07:00

Put urself in my shoe before u say something..this is Wat I've learn today..dunno la I just think life is miserable ~ is it because I really have my own mind set or something else ..

To perfect man

2011-07-17T09:02:00.000-07:00

Thank you to my perfect man for letting me doing something for u..babe love u and all the best babe!!! Cause Ure my perfect man!

Today

2011-07-17T08:54:00.000-07:00

觉得有很多事情好象改变了..“是我想太多，你总这样说，但你觉没有真的心疼我”

我的完美男人

2011-06-30T23:59:00.000-07:00

hehehe JUNE IS A SPECIAL MONTH ~
it was babe's special month ya~ all the best in your exam ya babe!! i love u very much..thank you for being there for me especially accompany me when i'm unhappy ^~^ and i'm really sorry babe for troubling u these few days..especially when ure having ur exam.. TT sorry!!

（完美朋友）
it was also my bestie burthday !!! JESSICA CHEN !! LOVE U ALL THE WHILE..ure always there for me when i'm really down..!! call me anytime when u need me k!! will always be there for u..although sometimes might not be free however i can accompany u through phone ya!!

stay tune for the picture TT currently having problem to upload picture ya!!

Thinking ~

2011-06-13T09:37:00.000-07:00

I'm tired!! I need to be alone!!!!!

Today

2011-06-07T19:43:00.000-07:00

These few days is a nightmare to me!!!!! Can I quickly settle everything?? Am I able to do that?? I'm exhausted de!!! Still got exam some more haihs can someone just slap me? Sigh !! But lucky I still got my hubby boy here with me to face everything !!

yesterday night

2011-06-05T00:40:00.000-07:00

went to sunway neway with neway friendz to celebrate birthday~ hehe sing k until 4am.. >< so late o..while girls are singing the guys are playing "lier dice".. TT at last actually i also got play when it is almost 3am!! my hubby boy didnt help me at all leh pif pif!!!..i keep on drink drink !! sigh.. nvm next time will be his turn de!!! ngek ngek~ well i think thats all for now >< short and easy XD

2/6/11

2011-06-05T00:37:00.000-07:00

bestie birthday~ !! love both of u very much!! well picture will do the talking ^^ thx to vincent say!! we're all late pif pif!! hehehe and thx babe for fetching us to puchong neway o love u very much!! hope to spend rest of my life with u..muackzzz

MOODY

2011-05-24T08:41:00.000-07:00

i feel so suffering..burden...exam coming assignment need to hand up.. i feel like giving up college ler..i'm tired of everything..this is the first time i think that everything is out of control..quiz wasn't doing well..EVERYTHING SEEM SUX..who can save me?? i need to be strong..i cant imagine..i feel like giving up my life..terrible life..

Night ~

2011-05-18T11:28:00.000-07:00

Just went to CEO Neway~ Heheh woah..its classy leh.. Well among so many Neway, CEO Neway in fahrenheit 88 is the most classy 1 + the service there also quite good..food is amazing ~ different from the other Neway ...but is a little pricy oso compare to the other Neway >< however quite enjoying cause We can sing until 4 but we don't have the energy TT so we didn't sing until 4 ya..hahaha ^^ and my enjoying part is to see babe sing~ ur voice is sooo sweet and "man" kekke~ thank you for spending ur time with me.. I appreciate that very much~ love u babe!!!

Nops ~

2011-05-16T20:33:00.000-07:00

These few days been very busy in my assignment TT while I'm doing my assignment I just can't stop eating >< I dunno y maybe that's the reason y I have a fat body !!! I really hate all I mean ALL of my FATS!! My fats really been an annoying issue to me..make me no confidence to wear sleeveless clothes and even short pants...i really have a hard time cause I dunno what I have to do in order losen down my weight and also my fats !! Sigh!! However I really can't stand ler life like this therefore I begin to go for consultant at those fitness(e.g.celebrity.true fitness, and fitness first) and London weight management, bizzy body and many more...but there is another problem which is money problem!!! Cause I'm just a student and I can't afford to pay therefore no choice ~ no money = forget about it TT however when my friend see me suffering in this situation , she remember that her cousin have try before a product in NOPS called Body Slim S liner which is from Korea, it helps to burn your fats therefore I decided to purchase it cause it's not that expensive it's cost Rm 70 however if you purchase it online it will be cheaper sometimes they even have promotion (e.g.15% off on the first item) therefore at first I don't believe but I have no choice if I don't try I will never know..therefore I purchase it at sunway pyramid however after a few days of trying I realise that big fat arm and legs are getting slimmer even my sister and my bf tell me that it's really working!!!! ^^ I'm happy that my wishes came true..with a slimmer body I can wear whatever clothes and pants I want!!! And I slowly gain back my confidence!!! Thank you NOPS for bringing such a wonderful product in to the Market !!!!!

There are a picture that I would like to show:

Revived !!!!!!!!

2011-05-16T10:37:00.001-07:00

My blog..

These few days

2011-05-16T10:27:00.000-07:00

babe thank you for making my day..!!!!! I feel happier day by day.. Although I dunno Wat to do to be a better girl that worth ur love but I just wanna say I will give up everything to gain ur love o ^^... I wish u will get healthier and happier in ur life o babe!! Ure always the tough and strong guy I know...I hope I can always protect u in future o~ love u babe !!!

Start working

2010-12-29T01:36:00.000-08:00

Will be working soon from 8pm to 4am lol it's tiring I guess TT

Special

2010-12-03T08:34:00.000-08:00

Just watched a movie lol and there is a sentence mention in that movie says that even just a minute but it's meant forever...and also to teach ppl that we must learn to appreciate each and everyone especially our the other half...babe ure perfect enough for me already ler..I know what i've wrote here u may not know but I just wanted to express my feeling through this blog..我觉得知足了应为你已经是完美...

today

2010-11-29T21:19:00.000-08:00

what i feel about today lol just another normal day?? have a great breakfast+lunch with dad..just only the 2 of us..well i can tell dad whatever i want i feel so happy..cause i feel that communication is really important especially for family member.

relationship?? i'm really satisfied and happy with you..your really perfect for me..cause these few days u're not around me..i realize alot of thing..i'm really over depending on u babe lol..which i need to be aware of.. >< i'm really satisfied with you cause you gave me a feeling that i will never find a person like you..you have been very patient to me when i'm having my exam..no matter how far we're apart i will always be there waiting for u..babe i really love u..i will learn to be independent i promise..no matter how lonely i'm out there, in my heart there is no one can replace u in my heart..time flies really fast, i will slowly learn to grown up (XD "mature")..eventually will see things differently compare to last time

Today

2010-11-25T00:32:00.000-08:00

我觉得我好无聊不应该做的我就做，应该做的我没做。今天起我不会再做不应该做的事。

Exam

2010-11-04T02:04:00.000-07:00

Is around the corner and I can't concentrate cause I'm not feeling well having fever... who can help me with my maths bis economic n account TT

:)

2010-10-26T12:45:00.000-07:00

Fine with everything..I treat my friend with my heart..no worries ya I'm fine to accept the fact..as long as u happy with or without me it's alright ya..go have fun with ur life..I'm fine alone no worries I'm big girl de.. life is always peaceful depends on how we think ^^ thank you for taking care of me~ keke I'm happy de o coz I did wat I need to do it's alright this is part of life...doesn't matter stay strong !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tdy

2010-10-24T01:08:00.001-07:00

Feel so unwanted

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FEI POR JEN JEN

2010-10-13T09:50:00.000-07:00

although i called but i feel that its not enough..i wanna share it here too

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FEI POR!! we've been through alot of things and we've been friends for almost 2 years de..so happy~~!!!!!!!!!!hope u enjoy ur big day!!! must always cheer urself up and must always take care of urself which i know that u can do it..because ure a strong girl..dont think too much if things that u cant solve just straight away go to bed and sleep then tmr only think ba..and have faith that every problem will sure have its own way to solve itself just like a magic..and now i'm not a wizard i cant make any magic but atleast i can still think of the magic that u put on me..giving me miracle and giving me wonderful life that nobody can replace u..no matter what will happen in the future, lets have faith that each and everyday of our life we will always be happy and healthy and wealthy =)...must always stay calm..dont think so much..i know that our friendship are as hard like a metal..HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAKE CARE MY DEAR...

HELLO EVERYONE

2010-10-10T23:42:00.000-07:00

PLS GO TO MY FACEBOOK PROFILE TO SUPPORT BOOM BOOM YA!!! WE NEED UR HELP VERY MUCH~~ PLS PLS PLS U CAN SHARE IT THROUGH UR FACEBOOK WALL OSO O PLS PLS THANK YOU FOR THE SUPPORT YA!!!!!

study

2010-10-01T23:29:00.000-07:00

amitabha..i wanna faint la..i decided wanna go outstation study for one and a half year..die also dont come back..

faith

2010-10-01T06:11:00.000-07:00

having faith in u makes me feel more happier to live in each day..i always remember how u treat me last time thats the moment that i appreciate and feel very happy and excited..but words that always come to my mind was i'm a couple and ure single ..maybe thats the difference that its hard to maintain both relationship and friendship at once..but i never give up on my friendship..i never and doesnt want to believe that relationship and friendship are hard to maintain until i hear from u then i only realize maybe it is hard..during the beginning of this year, i believe i can maintain cause my friend do really can hang around with my bf and we were all so happy each and everyday..this is the best memories and also the happiest moment..i'm sorry to my friend that i didnt maintain it well.. pls forgive me.. if things has turn out this way then there is no other option anymore then i'm lost.. i know ure tired and stress too..and i wanna add something another happy moment is that how u take care of me remember at ur house ?? while we both are studying >< then u cook maggie mee for me right after my bf went home?? remember ?? hahahah and also my bf bought snow flake for us hahahahah~~ go see agua hahah.. thank you my dear i'll never forget about those moment..all this memories are hidden deep inside my heart..thank you for all the caring, happiness, that u bring to me..i dunno wat to do if ure not a part of my life..i'm lonely and i lost my path of way..but i cant give up no matter how lonely am i..i must go on there are a lot of things that are waiting for me to do..sigh i think thats it..my friend do u know what wat we've been through its hard to mention by writing it out but its easy to keep it in heart and think about it inside heart cause nobody can ever change the memories..

courage

2010-09-15T23:21:00.000-07:00

a peaceful life for me will do..courage is what i really need for now..i hate to think so much this is a bad attitude i have..hint that u gave me i understand and i know what to do..being alone in an environment wont be that worst i guess >< LOL..learn to grow up is something that is difficult..but i might give it a try ^^ ..

life

2010-09-08T07:38:00.000-07:00

just now when i read a girl's blog, i was so relieve because i thought i a lil mental problem lol.. but after reading her blog i feel so happy because there is someone out there having the same feeling like i do..and facing similar problem like i do too..and the fact is i dont know her ^^..

last few days, my feeling were totally suck+worst which i dont even have the energy to do anything i even put all my unhappy stress feeling on my babe this is wat i feel the worst.. and i'm really out of control.. even my babe feel dunno wat to do to me which he had done a lot of stuff just to make me happy..but i just give him a cold face..i'm sorry babe..because i've been waiting for u to say "love you, hug and hold my hands" all these things really melt my heart..i know i've been acting like a lil kiddo and is time to be a mature adult..learn to give and take if this relationship is really wat we want to work it on till we're old..a relationship require fully participation of both of us..i hope that ure the one that will always lead me when i'm lost..last time u used to cuddle me, always be there for me, willing to wait me for few hours TT.. but now u dont cuddle me this is one of the reason y i'm being so sensitive..because u're always there to cuddle me give me wat i want treat me like a lil princess this is y i feel so miserable..but i understand babe because yesterday u told me ure always the same u would still always be there and willing to wait for me for few hours babe thank you..i understand sometimes when i'm too over that make u really reach ur limit..sorry babe now is the time for me to learn to grow up..babe and thank you for being so patience to me..babe whenever i'm out of control u could always stop me by saying "ILU" XD..

sigh

2010-09-02T09:22:00.000-07:00

family is a thing that i feel so miserable..maybe i'm slowly used to it de ba..i feel i need to be alone..when i'm outside i wish to be back home ASAP..maybe its my fault coz i didnt shop with them for a long time de..but everything already turn out this way so..let it be..coz i dunno whether i want change to another way or not..wat i can say i already slowly used to the way they wanna treat me de.. ^^ peace

TT

2010-09-02T07:16:00.000-07:00

life

2010-09-02T06:57:00.000-07:00

babe..sigh today dunno wat happen i feel so exhausted lol *everyday i oso feel that way* i think maybe the weather too hot sigh..i feel so miserable these few days..lucky babe ure always there with a sweet smile for me..i really admire u ler, ur smile really can make ppl faint ler lol.. especially me ><

I SO MISS U NOW LER..U KNOW THAT?? WHERE R U ?? *at T T*

DID U MISS ME?? *i do*

LOL..i think i'm crazy..babe i'm lost TT lol i think i'm not sure..

MISERABLE LIFEEEE

tdy

2010-08-28T10:23:00.000-07:00

a hungry man is an angry man..now only i realize y nowadays i get so angry easily..when i bath just now i only realize..its because i didnt organize my time to eat properly when until its late night i starting to feel hungry and yet i cant eat that's the time i feel depress and disappointed..

sigh

2010-08-23T08:12:00.000-07:00

has a discussion with my daddy just now about my studies at oversea..daddy let me go ler for 2 years at aus..but i feel so unhappy..there are alot of thing that i'm afraid TT.. i want to spend time with my tan put put, afraid that my friend in kl will forget about me..afraid my family especially my daddy will have a burden because my sis and i going off in the same year..however, this is not the final decision..so i no need to think about it first..now i just wish to spend time with my tan put put and my fei porS and my twins.. no wonder ppl always used to say appreciate ppl that are around u !! tan put put i hope that u will remember our promise.. there is one thing i wish it badly..i wish that all my friends my fei pors can go together ler at aus..remember wat we used to say ?? when in aus fei por jen will do the cooking lol..so yam gong hahahah..and babe tan put put i just wish to enjoy and appreciate every moment with u although i always act like a kid TT sorry babe i know its hard to stand my behavior really thank you babe really ILU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but anyway now is only under discussion nvm nvm nvm nvm still got time to think..long way to go ~~

day

2010-08-18T06:55:00.000-07:00

babe..gambateh in ur assignment alright!!!!!!! ure my best genius SLIM babe!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL..today was awesome..

a good afternoon

2010-08-16T08:55:00.000-07:00

have girls talk session today, it was awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i feel so happy..well we talk about poo poo today that was the main point..lol..keep on laughing like a clown lol and our venue was library !!

trip

2010-08-16T08:54:00.000-07:00

arghhhh!! just feel like going outstation ler..sigh.. after redang next station is where?? i feel like going sea side,taiwan,hong kong,korea.. TT

appreciate my asset

2010-08-16T08:41:00.000-07:00

thank you for being so patient with me..especially doing things that u would feel uncomfortable..i really appreciate wat u've done for me..tan put put u know what..i feel that my connection with ur family are getting more and more good ler..i feel that ur mom feel relieved when u're with me.. i dunno ler i think so gua..not sure >< i'm a thick face girl hor?? MUAHAHAHAH~~ when i hear ur mom say if ah wei in accident again, she will scold u and me together lol..after hearing that i feel very happy.. hehehehe..i love u so much..take care ya!! rest more..!! muackz good night sweet dream..

a warm morning

2010-08-16T00:35:00.000-07:00

morning means a starting day for everyone..i always hope that every morning when i wake up babe ure the first one who is beside of me..and i always hope for the best but in life there are always up and down just like a mountain..i hope to face life with happiness this is very important cause i believe no matter what life always goes on..babe my life wont be empty as long as ure always there with me..babe do u know that ure very important to me!!!! no matter how far we're apart i hope that we'll always believe in our promise..i love u very much..

tdy =)

2010-08-08T00:32:00.000-07:00

is this wat we call life??

if thats wat we call life, then thats very pathetic

i knew it would arrive in a day but i just didnt realize it arrive so soon

nvm atleast i didnt regret wat we've been through ^^

babe

2010-08-03T19:41:00.000-07:00

past few days i feel that my life were so pathetic..i feel so terrible..dont feel like talking..but thank you babe if it wasn't u being there for me..giving me advise..i really dunno how to handle my thought.. thank you for answering calls for me..calls that i feel that its tired talk to..babe i love u very much..u should be having a good and peacefully holiday but because of me its like a worst holiday ever..sigh..babe..i feel that nowadays i got a problem..what ever things that i said oso will make ppl feel so uneasy..haihs..i think i'm gonna turn on mute mode..haihs..i dunno ler..babe i really need u..i love u babe..i've difficulty that time ure always there for me to solve my problem for example my birthday that day? u still remember?? i really appreciate deep inside my heart..i miss u babe!! i'm waiting u at home =)..do u know wat babe..u always give me the best thing ever..giving me things that i dont have and oso learn things from u..babe thank you !! actually doing simple stuff like playing card and watch movie at home make me feel warm and its the best thing for me..

bad memory

2010-07-31T09:49:00.000-07:00

i really dunno how to express my feeling.. but i had it enough.. i reach my limit.. have u ever treat me as a friend? think before u say!! there were a lot of thing that u did to me but u just dont even give a damm to understand about my feeling..i'm just like a machine for u to "touch n go" ..i'm a just a friend to u when u need me..orelse i'm just like a stranger..remember u ditch me n xin jia for following wai ling they all?? remember?? u know i FEEL so damm pain inside my heart!!! atlast was cathy the one who accompany me instead of u !! come on we've been friend for more than 6 years..actually i dun mind u ask me to help for meeting ur bf but there was one time i remember we actually promise to watch a movie together but at the same day suddenly ur bf was free then u just walk off to meet ur bf..i dun mind nvm i know coz u dun have many time to spend with him..its ok!!! i just feel so sick of everything !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! to me from foundation till now its xin jia who accompany me no matter how whether i'm alone or not feeling well or family problem and many la when i'm worried for my exam she even tell me nvm we stay back together and study together no matter what she didnt give up on me..she even gave me things that she wanted badly..jia i really love u !!!..i just know her for 1 year and 7 month but she treat me like her own family member i dont mean to compare but when i started to think about it i FEEL MORE SICK.. MORE DISAPPOINTED..jennifer and vone deng i oso know them for 1 year and 7 month but they didnt give up on me although i always didnt pick up their calls..they still call me..ask me whether i got come to college or not ah..whether i got print notes or not ler..whether i'm unhappy or not ah..jen even sacrifice her time teach me maths which is my weakest subject by staying after college to teach me..teach me in other subject..cheer me up with SOMETHING *secret*.. take care me..comfort me when i'm worried for my exam which is the most important thing which i needed it badlyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy .. all these while i always have faith wish that one day u could sacrifice ur day for me instead of meeting up ur bf..but nvm end up disappointed only ya!!

specially to babe

2010-07-07T04:38:00.000-07:00

babe i'm so sorry these few days i keep on behave like a kid i'm so sorry

i really appreciate wat u've done for me all these time..

babe ur friend stuff makes me feel that our relationship is just like a gold

a gold that we must treasure it till the very very very very end

till we're both old..

i believe that no matter how long a relationship is if both them doesnt treasure it then no point ler of being together ler..

i love u babe..

i really hope when ure an old grandpa i will be the one next to u holding ur hand..

REDANG

2010-07-06T05:43:00.000-07:00

this is my first time with my friends going for a trip !! REDANG!!

maybe u may think i'm kampung girl *da heong lei* TT but i'm not !!

i'm really enjoy ler coz every morning my 2 fei por come wake you wei and me up ler because they know if they didnt wake we both up we will oversleep punya ler!!

i really dont feel like going home because home gave me a sick feeling but at redang got friends and bf there i really feel warm and at redang we're like staying together at a house with different rooms..

i really hope that there will be next station that all of us can go out together AGAIN ler..

thank you fat babe !! thank you very much for always be there for me..i know mostly oso u take care me ler help me clean up the room *although i oso got la but once only* for giving me a warm hug when i'm cold and oso also blanket !! thank you thank you babe !!!! wo ai ni!!!! accompany me to dance and buy stuff and swimming even though ure tired after finish snorkling!!

thank you vone deng seeing u makes me feel happy coz u always kena bully heheheh hou yam gong ler!! especially when u kena sand on ur pipi ler >< then u ran into jen and me to protect u ^^ fei por ting!! ting no matter wat happen to u..jen and me will always forever be with u !! big mama here muahahahah~~

thank you fei por jen!! for planning all the trip!! without u this trip wont work !! and thank you for taking care of me for the whole trip TT i know i'm a big kid!! THANK YOU!! i feel very warm when i hear ur voice screaming and shouting here and there ler >< it makes me feel that ur around me!!! really thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thank you debbie for ur sleeping suit without it i think i cant be sleeping comfortably!!!! and >< sorry bie if i throw sand on ur head sorry dont angry k bie !! ah bie i hope there is next time that we can still go out for trip ler.. i really feel very happy that we went together for this trip ler!!

thank you vincent for joining sorry because u got exam yet u still join us ler.. thank you!!!! gambateh in ur exam ya!!

thank you cathy for the colgate hehehe without that my mouth will be smelly and i will be going to jen's room and steal hers hahahahah.. cathy i feel happy to see u there it makes me feel happy..

thank you edmund for accompany you wei and me to laguna's swimming pool..U WALK AWAY BECAUSE U FEEL THAT I FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE BECAUSE OF U but i wanna tell u its not because of u k its because of that bunch of guyz at the jaguzzi ler not u !!!

thank you boo chooi and wandy without u guys for joining redang trip everything meant nothing ler.. boo boo although is the first time going to trip with u but i feel happy and funny with you words!! hahahaha

TO MY FAMILY MEMBERS

2010-06-26T11:16:00.000-07:00

just GIVE me MONEY and treat me invisible then can de.. thank you

2010-06-26T11:11:00.000-07:00

now if i got problem i oso wont tell mom

i just wanna keep it to myself

coz i feel so embarrassing tell all my friends about my family

haihs..

i PROMISE I WONT TELL ANYTHING I'M SUFFERING TO MY FAMILY INCLUDING MY MOM

family

2010-06-26T11:05:00.000-07:00

u call someone a sis not just by calling or saying..its that how u mean it how u treat ur sis..

i've did my job

but how about u

u just know how to use me

when u got problem only find me

FUCK U!!!

ure not fit to be my sis

SHIT U!!

ure just a dramatic person

so what if the whole family like u

URE JUST A DRAMATIC PPL

WHENEVER WAT I DO I OSO THINK ABOUT HOW U TREAT ME

FUCK U

THANKS TO UR DRAMATIC NESS

I HATE THIS FAMILY MORE !!

U SAY MOM HELP U ALOT

YEA YEA SO WHAT U JUST BOUGHT AND LV ONLY MAH OSO NOT UR MONEY

FUCKING DRAMATIC FUCK OFF

NO NEED TO ACT IN FRONT OF ME

DISGUSTING

tdy TT

2010-06-18T00:21:00.000-07:00

feel so miserable..

dunno y i'm acting this way..

i'm suffering..

i doesnt wish to act this way..

but i cant control..

i'm tired..

sigh

2010-06-11T08:41:00.000-07:00

i need some privacy pls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH NO!!!!

gonna be a crazy gal de living in this house S H I T!!

SELFISH FAMILY MEMBERS

got a sis who just know how to find u when she is in trouble or she need anything

got a bro who just know how to think about his benefit

got a dad who just know how to get his stuff and doesnt care about ppl's feeling

CONCLUSION: wanna get out of this family ASAP

relationship

2010-06-06T11:08:00.000-07:00

there is no right or wrong..

appreciate

treasure it

=)

2010-06-06T11:05:00.000-07:00

who will win??

MAYDAY

2010-06-05T19:59:00.000-07:00

i think ppl like me go to MAYDAY's concert was a waste of money ><""

but however first didnt plan to go de ler..babe plan to give that ticket to other ppl because he doesnt feel comfortable going concert with stranger because his elder sis gave the ticket to outsider that she just know that stranger for just a few month.. so i just feel normal is ok if duwan to go and is ok if i go too i'm just neutral..so at last no choice have to go coz need to bring babe's younger sis to go..but half way of the concert 3 of us left the concert..cause i'm really blur with the song that they sing ler..i just know 2 songs i think >< then babe ask his younger sis "eh u know all the song that they sing or not??" then his younger sis said "yea of course dad downloaded some of the song of MAYDAY's for me"..babe and i were like stun "are we outdated??"

conclusion MAYDAY's concert was fantastic and fun!! with all the robot,taxi and many more ler..

finally

2010-05-23T01:03:00.000-07:00

FIRST, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LITTLE BRO (WONG HAN YANG)..must stay happy forever..jie will always be there for u when u need me !! hehehee AND KENNY CHEE ENG KANG happy birthday big boy de lerr!!!!! must take care ya..yesterday was a great day at aman suria..

Secondly, i'm so disappointed about my birthday present LOL,,HEY I NEVER HESITATE LER..AND U NEVER TELL ME THE TRUTH TOO =(

lastly,yesterday was a great day lol sam pat with jen,han yang and babe @ss2 hahahahah~~

random

2010-05-13T07:34:00.000-07:00

everything don't come in a right time..haihs boring + fed up

not in a good mood

2010-05-03T03:11:00.000-07:00

dont feel like talking..feel tired because didnt sleep well yesterday..tired of re-correcting the assignment haihs..headache..today when i attend marketing class, tutor told us that we need to briefly link in the first sentence of the paragraph but i didnt do that..so i better be prepare to die..after so many times of re-correcting gosh!! fed up..i dont wanna care about the result de ler let it be ba!!! MOODY~ haihs.. I'M SUPER DUPER TIRED...its ok to carry a lab top bag around but i feel the longer i carry the more i feel its heavy..i'm think i'm getting older and older de..like wat jen say be tough thats the only thing that i can do now!! fight for the rest of the assignments!!!!!!

assignment

2010-05-01T18:38:00.000-07:00

headache with assignment ><" tmr is the dateline and i'm still fooling around ler...

haihs..tsk tsk.. TT can someone help me????????????????

i'm so sorry babe that i scratch ur hand =(

i didnt mean it ler..

now

2010-04-30T10:32:00.001-07:00

@ home..boring TT.. babe is playing basketball heheh =) wish i'm there too so i can record videozz ngek ngek~~ wasnt in a good mood today =( very sleepy ler yesterday just slept for 3 hours ++ only.. lucky i still can wake up for college..so sad liao lo babe say he will call me de LOL!!!!! at the end he just msg me only..and my sot sot phone didnt ring at all!! so i dont know when i received his msg..by that time i know i already in college de --""..SALAH~NYA!!! glad that michael didnt comment much on our slidez..!!! thx to vone deng for all the hard work!!! GAMBATEH~~

very blur now feel like sleeping soon..
good night everyone..

tdy

2010-04-14T09:56:00.000-07:00

went to pyramid and eat lunch with vone deng, debbie, jennifer, cathy and edmund ler ^^ today also cathy and edmund's anniversary ya!! heheh hope they always happy !! and sing k also ~~ like always hahaha snatch mic~~ but i win ler at last!!(as if) muahahahaha~~thank you ting for borrowing me the phone really thank you my dear!!!!!! and jennifer and debbie for teaching me how to cook the porridge ler !! XIA XIA DA JIA!!!

after that went home and cook porridge for babe~ although i know the porridge doesnt look good but nice lol..later tmr pangsai ><"" pray for babe first !! but i wanna tell babe that this is my first time ler and its full with my heart yea~~ after that went home to bath =) fresh fresh!! then only went for a movie @ pavillion.. glad to see some singer!!!! thank you babe!!!!! i know wat u mean ler about ting han that example..i really understand just that i dunno how to express my feeling ler..i'm really sorry..but i just wanna tell u i really love u ler babe i care about u also !!! i hope u really like the porridge ler !!! although abit cacat ><..i hope u understand i appreaciate each and every moment that we spend together ler !!! everything that i write it out here i really mean it ler babe!!!

^^ tired liao wanna sleep de
good night everyone

day by day

2010-03-30T11:48:00.000-07:00

glad to know more about u..i mean the deeper u means about ur life, family life and also friends life..i'm so sorry because of me..u seldom hang out with ur friends and sometimes family also..i'm so sorry..i just wanna tell u i really love u and appreciate u muackz babe !! hope to see u every morning once i wake up..keke..if i love u..i should learn to be more understanding to figure out wat is right and wat is wrong..i'm so sorry for being so childish..that make u hurt..i know when i'm full with stress u'll always be there for me especially this peak season == but its ok even when i'm moody, angry, unhappy i wish u'll always be there to cheer me up..and really wanna thank u babe!! all these while ure there for me..thank you..

its very late de..

gtg

night night everyone sweet dreamz!!

tdy

2010-03-16T10:55:00.000-07:00

life suxxx to the max..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

college

2010-03-05T08:55:00.000-08:00

started =( i feel so tension ler TT its like a race..rushing to end this semester ><..haihs just attended a week of lecture..did i pick the wrong course??? should i change? sigh..headache..when it comes to math math math math..OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG..FEEL LIKE CRYING DE..last time still can say got jennifer,my bro's gf , xin jia, ..but now who is going to help me?? + everyone are not studying in the same class ler.. miserable feeling ler..i'm too depending on friendz ler TT..

thx to babe for supporting me if it wasnt u who will always be there for me..i think i'm dead de.. !! and i really need to think about my future..am i suitable to take this course (='.'=)..i duwan to hesitate anymore laaaaaaaaaaaaa...60% of exam ler omgggggggggggggggg!!

tdy

2010-01-28T09:35:00.000-08:00

do u know what wordz that will makez me feel peaceful each and every night before i sleep??

ANS: i love u

thank you babe~

woah

2010-01-26T20:49:00.000-08:00

wonderful life

sick of friendz

2010-01-20T09:53:00.000-08:00

i'm tired de..i dont feel like telling anyone but i'm really tired i'm really tired of u!!! wat u wanna say go ahead ba..i feel numb and this is not the first time de ya.. so its ok!! go ahead ba ^^..but sometimes i'm really tired when i'm not feeling well and yet i still saw some comment from u..thank you..i take everything as compliment ^^ having friend like u..i would say interesting !!..I FEEL VERY BORING..i have to be strong..and please mind ur own business THANK YOU!! I FEEL TIRED OF U DE..PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE..this is the first time i feel so irritating and annoying from a BELOVED FRIEND...thank you..!! WHAT I WISH IS ONLY TO LIVE IN A NORMAL LIFE..IF U WANNA BE THAT OUTSTANDING GO AHEAD NO ONE WILL BLOCK UR WAY AND I KNOW U CAN DO IT!! BUT PLEASE PLEASE I JUST WANT MY LIFE..LEAVE ME ALONE..GO BE WITH WHOEVER U THINK IS UR FRIEND!!

sick

2010-01-15T21:45:00.000-08:00

almost a week de~~ during these dayz quite tired + boring everyday oso have to stay at home haihs...sigh!! glad that bf willing to accompany me ^^ thank you ya~~ tonight will be going for party~~ hope that i have full energy to attend @@..but i scared ****** lerr..haihs nvm be strong!!

feelingz

2010-01-07T11:50:00.000-08:00

2009 soundz weird but i'm happy coz 2009 bringz happiness to me..a new beginning of life..a new step of relationship =) lol i feel very happy coz bf willing to spend his time to take the opportunity to visit me in fullhouse at pyramid all most everyday..i know everyone might say because our relationship still new and everything thats y we both willing to sacrifice time in order to find each other.. i do believe but i wish to let thingz go naturally..

last day

2010-01-07T11:20:00.000-08:00

went to AC for our dinner... counted as a farewell dinner but only debbie, lynn and me eating only @@"" i might be going back to work if everyone still there but i know its impossible >< i did not regret of working in fullhouse..!!cause i met a bunch of awesome ppl..!!!!!!!!! i miss u guyz i will be going back to visit all of u !!! thankz to edmund, johnson and ah dong for teaching me thingz that i dont know..and working in fullhouse makez me realising the meaning of familly..

now!!

2010-01-06T07:35:00.001-08:00

currently at station 1 with bf,dawn,shang and beh yam cha~ing..^^ tired tsk tsk

^^ daily life

2009-12-30T17:33:00.000-08:00

hehe feel so happy at least there is someone who willing to spend time with me right after my work @ pyramid =)..although i feel tremendously tired but yet i feel so happy at the same time XD.. hehe and i feel so happy that kenny and ********* came bek from ********..

working

2009-12-20T07:36:00.000-08:00

actually i used to think that working at fullhouse was a happy decision..and even now i don't feel regret ler!!!!!!!! but a bit confuse with things that are going around.. i never think to stop working at fullhouse even though my new semester startz but i keep on thinking on negative side ler~ and i'm really sad ler towardz the shiftz that was given..dizzy la!!

currently working at pyramid hehe

2009-12-15T11:02:00.001-08:00

well..

2009-12-05T11:08:00.000-08:00

friendship ended

SUAN

DAMMM DISAPPOINTED

bali end??

2009-12-05T01:19:00.001-08:00

yay!! tmr u all coming bek de lu~~

everything will be fine?

2009-12-05T01:15:00.000-08:00

i hope so ya!!

our friendship will continue no matter wat type of obstacle that we will meet in the future or maybe now right??

no comment!!

be strong!!

laalalala~~

appearance?

2009-12-04T02:02:00.000-08:00

is it really important?
not only towards guyz but girlz also le!!
but for me i dun think itz important at all ler

haihs

2009-11-30T05:48:00.000-08:00

i think i've done wrong decision ler

as expected

2009-11-25T04:48:00.000-08:00

everything ended perfectly ^^

after test

2009-11-24T22:05:00.000-08:00

right after our test we went to eat chicken rice~~ hehe jennifer fetch us go~~ lucky ntg happen coz i haven't buy INSURANCE for myself hahaha after we went to 100 yen lol chit chatting..its fun coz tmr is the last paper de huuuuuuuuuuuuuurray~~~~
YESH!! after that muahahaha our plan are ALL FULL
hehe thanks to neng neng!!
lucky she plan everything that makez our lifee full with enjoyment right after exam !!

feeling

2009-11-24T01:12:00.000-08:00

miserable..worry about a lot of things..I've decided right after exam end there will be a conclusion for everything~~

tdy

2009-11-20T06:08:00.000-08:00

i really hate u a lot!!!!
i hate u because the mark that u left for me
eventhough i dont love u anymore but the mark would always be there
why r u so selfish?
if u wanna leave then just take the mark with u and JUST LEAVE!!
i cant forgive u
I HATE U!!

my BFF

2009-11-14T20:24:00.001-08:00

AIYORRRRR..my hair TT
found this picha on bie's pen drive then steal..ngek ngek
actually still got in jennifer's pen drive but i dunno whether she still got keep onot o !! @@

family

2009-11-14T19:59:00.000-08:00

called my mommy just now and told her abt the thingz that my friend want o..
mommy without u, i feel so miserable and lack of confidence..

TT

2009-11-14T02:58:00.000-08:00

haihs i dun have any motivation at all ler!! TT little bro where are u ?? i miss all of u laa~~ sien ler at home alone facing wall!!

today

2009-11-07T02:32:00.000-08:00

i should stop dreaming and continue my path of way